Deserved Heart: One Poem Gives a Glimpse into the Love of God

I often see the courage and dedication of those I serve as a therapist. Not too often are those incredibly sacred moments shared with you.

Deserved Heart is an honest reflection on the journey from trauma and pain to a deep knowing of the love our heavenly Father freely serves.

Take a deep breath.
Settle in your seat.

And allow these words to wash over you God’s perfect peace.

Deserved Heart
Written By Elisabeth

Born with a compassionate heart
Deeply feeling things
From the start

Waves rush in making me freeze
Yet a breakdown occurs
With the slightest breeze

Being taught to be perfect
Yearning for love
Seeking to earn it

Nothing I did would be up to par
Questioning my worth
Always wanting that gold star

Telling myself I’m a burden
My voice is worthless
Hating myself till exertion

What is self love?
I rarely even like me

The clouds in my mind
Begin to swell
Preventing me from being kind

Kindness is something I give to others
Not to myself
It’s not given by mothers

These lies in my head
Spin and twirl
Making me wish I was dead

Cascading rain pours down
The thunder comes
Why bother being around?

In that moment I see only darkness…

As my tears begin to drop
The rain begins to stop

I see a glimpse of light
Maybe I’m worth the fight?

I long to reach out
To my inner child
In more ways than I can count

Love is something I don’t have to earn
It’s unconditional in its purest form
It’s vastly different from my norm

I can give myself the love I deserve
The love my heavenly Father freely serves